Heath Ferguson's "The Throne Room"

I just don’t have it today, God.  I didn’t excel at anything today.  As a matter of fact, I pretty much failed at everything I summoned up the courage to even attempt and simply cowered away from everything else. 

So here I am, God; painfully reminded of my weakness and immaturity.  I’ve been out and away and I need to come back in.  Will You see me today?  Do You have time for me?  I don’t deserve it, and I know You’ve got a lot going on. 

Then I remember, You’ve given me a standing invitation. 

28 Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28

I feel like I slink away from You in my selfishness and self-absorption. And then, like some lost three-year-old, I wander aimlessly in fear and failure.

All the while, Your throne room is always near.  Your eye was always on me.  Your love always held me.  I realize this, and I crack the door open, peeking through to see Your light.  On my knees I crawl to you.

  16 Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need. Hebrews 4:16

At Your feet I feel safe enough.  I feel privileged and proud to be so close to You.  But there with my head bowed, Your Spirit bathes me in something deeper and more precious.  I look up and I see You’ve left Your throne and You’ve reached out Your nail-scarred hand.  Here’s God, the Creator and Sustainer of the universe, and He’s come to meet me where I am.  I feel the burdens of shame and regret fall from my shoulders.  I remember the truth and depth of Your love.  The reality of You and Your grace breaks my heart.  I know I’m loved, and that makes all the difference.  I need You, and You’re here. I’m new and I’m whole, because You first loved me.

I love You, Lord.  Thank You.

But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, 5 even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ—by grace you have been saved— 6 and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, 7 so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. 8 For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, 9 not a result of works, so that no one may boast. 10 For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.  Ephesians 2:4-10


{Blog by Heath Ferguson}